I only drink it when I'm sick. It's tasting so good.
I don't know why I can't stand the taste of water when I have a sore throat.
Guilt.
I have it whenever my plans have to change for a virus.
It's feeling so bad that; (a) I made food for Shabbat and can't go because I'm sick, and (b) I had plans to go see the super fantastic band, Lisa's Hotcakes, and now I can't go.
It's not just any band, it's my friends' band.
Two of the lovely friends that are on the list to spend time with, and share their energy before I take off for my first long stint in the Dominican Republic.
So, I guess I have a good day of studying Spanish and Hebrew today.
I hope my foggy head will let those words and symbols set in!
I'll also have some time to study about Hanukkah. This will be my first time celebrating it.
I don't have to deal with the guilt from those damn Catholics.
Fear god!?!?!
Right dudes. I can't fear something I don't believe in.
Jesus was a Jew.
I can believe he existed. But I don't believe he was magic. He was just a good Jew soul that wanted peace in the world.
I've just learned Jews don't believe in hell.
Another good one is that I don't have to use the word 'god', but rather that you don't say it and it becomes g*d!! I'm so grateful!
I'm finding so much more that I can relate to.
Don't worry. I'm not turning into some religious zealot. I still don't believe in g*d.
And the Jews are ok with that.
Mind you, I'm going to a reform synagogue. They're much more liberal and inclusive.
I get to be me. No fucking guilt.
Except for the fact that I swear too much and I know that occasionally, Rabbi Laura comes here to read and I feel guilty about the fact that I'm being myself on my blog.
That and that I have a bit of a violent energy when I'm talking about predators.
However, even with that, I've learned that I'm allowed to be myself, because there's no way I could be perfect. I just need to know what I need to work on and it will get better.
Oh, I know.
I know that no matter where I go, day or night, I constantly and consistently look over my shoulder for the plausible creeps of the world.
I know that when I'm standing idle, I settle myself with my back to a wall, to be sure there's no crud standing behind me awaiting their opportunity to strike.
I know that when I cross the street, I look every direction, non-stop, for cars that could potentially hit me. I do this until my feet hit the sidewalk, then start looking over my shoulder again for scum of the earth behind me.
I know that I need to stop thinking about the revenge I can get on all these people.
I know that I need to stop the P.T.S.D.
Only then will I be open enough to allow positivity in every way come into my life.
I know that I have a lot to learn.
I also know that the NyQuil has kicked in and I'm feeling a hell of a lot better.
I also know that I'm definitely sick. I think I've jumped around about 5 topics.
Coma time.
i enjoy being positive and having positive feelings
