The angels DO have a sense of humour.
I was at the hardware store, yet again, where I'm becoming part of the scenery, and I was waiting patiently for The Carpenter to get his wood, concrete, nails etc. that he needed.
I'm really only there to pay, as I'm just a walking wallet.
Anyway, I was waiting for him to return and was missing my HECTOR cohort, wishing we could play some music together now that my bitch of a back is being friendly.
The ticket to get here is quite expensive, so I can't just see my Drummer Boy just hopping on a plane to come make music.
Nor can I see him leaving behind The Turkey, my first godson, so I was just wishing that someway, somehow, I could have tons of cash to fly him here to the Dominican Republic to play some shows.
My Bluelight ex-buddy has enough cash to come here, and I miss her as well, but chances are that she's mad enough at me that she will NEVER forgive me enough to visit. Chances are I could never trust her friendship again anyway.
But there I was wishing I had money.
I went into the hardware store to pay, and the first amazing thing happened, that worker that I said I'd win the heart of, gave me a hug, saying, "I like you. You're my friend." Accomplished! Won his heart! Bad Spanish and all!
Then within moments, the PanMan came in.
He's the one the angels sent me the other day, when I really needed to hear some words of wisdom.
I bought a bunch of snacks for for Papi, as he asked how we were doing.
We spoke a while about the ups and downs, how hard it is to live here. He understood fully when I spoke about having lost our cat, and that Papi is really down. Really depressed.
Mostly from grieving, but also because we're both stressed the fuck out about money.
He told me there would be an opportunity for Papi to work for him if he liked. It would be in sales for the land he has, not to mention, the eco-tourism that he needs promotion for.
I explained that it would be a job for me, not for Papi, that Papi doesn't like sales, but I'm a natural born hustler. I'll work hard, and try my best, even if I fail.
I told him I'd email him again and look at options for working with him.
I strolled back to the car with my bag of bread in hand, looking to the sky for my angels, saying, "You really are funny, you know that?"
So, maybe I need to ask them to help Papi a bit more.
He's really in a rough state, in his own Pit of Doom.
He knows everything he needs to do to get out of his depression, but he just can't do it.
Not to mention, I'm not able to persuade him to do those things, or he'll get upset telling me, "You think I don't know that? You don't remember I worked in mental health and told people that every single day of life?"
Yeah.
I know you know that Papi.
I just want so badly for you to feel better.
Just like the PanMan said, "You have to ride the waves. They go up, they come down, but you are never in one place. If you're down, the law is you have to come up. But when you're up, you also have to come down."
Couldn't have said it better myself.
Papi and I had gone to the beach yesterday, because it was the country's day off of work. A day to celebrate workers and they got a day off with pay.
We went to the beach with the masses.
It was my first time to the Sosúa Beach. As I floated, I looked to the sky and spoke to the angels, "Thank you for this opportunity to play in the waves. Thank you for giving me a break today and letting me just float here. Thank you for the ocean."
I have more to thank than for just the relaxing day we finally got to have.
I have to thank the waves for allowing me to ride them.
Come back up Papi!
Your wave has to come back up.
It's crashing a little.
Gratitude List, Day 7/10
1. I am grateful the angels keep sending me words.
2. I am grateful I keep looking for the angels words.
3. I am grateful I worked to get myself out of my depression.
4. I am grateful for the ocean to help heal my back.
5. I am grateful for people genuinely liking me.
6. I am grateful for people who have been mean, so that I know what good people are to me.
7. I am grateful for friends who support me.
8. I am grateful to feel loved.
9. I am grateful for the small opportunity that may be to make an income.
10. I am grateful for Papi to ride these waves with.
I was at the hardware store, yet again, where I'm becoming part of the scenery, and I was waiting patiently for The Carpenter to get his wood, concrete, nails etc. that he needed.
I'm really only there to pay, as I'm just a walking wallet.
Anyway, I was waiting for him to return and was missing my HECTOR cohort, wishing we could play some music together now that my bitch of a back is being friendly.
The ticket to get here is quite expensive, so I can't just see my Drummer Boy just hopping on a plane to come make music.
Nor can I see him leaving behind The Turkey, my first godson, so I was just wishing that someway, somehow, I could have tons of cash to fly him here to the Dominican Republic to play some shows.
My Bluelight ex-buddy has enough cash to come here, and I miss her as well, but chances are that she's mad enough at me that she will NEVER forgive me enough to visit. Chances are I could never trust her friendship again anyway.
But there I was wishing I had money.
I went into the hardware store to pay, and the first amazing thing happened, that worker that I said I'd win the heart of, gave me a hug, saying, "I like you. You're my friend." Accomplished! Won his heart! Bad Spanish and all!
Then within moments, the PanMan came in.
He's the one the angels sent me the other day, when I really needed to hear some words of wisdom.
I bought a bunch of snacks for for Papi, as he asked how we were doing.
We spoke a while about the ups and downs, how hard it is to live here. He understood fully when I spoke about having lost our cat, and that Papi is really down. Really depressed.
Mostly from grieving, but also because we're both stressed the fuck out about money.
He told me there would be an opportunity for Papi to work for him if he liked. It would be in sales for the land he has, not to mention, the eco-tourism that he needs promotion for.
I explained that it would be a job for me, not for Papi, that Papi doesn't like sales, but I'm a natural born hustler. I'll work hard, and try my best, even if I fail.
I told him I'd email him again and look at options for working with him.
I strolled back to the car with my bag of bread in hand, looking to the sky for my angels, saying, "You really are funny, you know that?"
So, maybe I need to ask them to help Papi a bit more.
He's really in a rough state, in his own Pit of Doom.
He knows everything he needs to do to get out of his depression, but he just can't do it.
Not to mention, I'm not able to persuade him to do those things, or he'll get upset telling me, "You think I don't know that? You don't remember I worked in mental health and told people that every single day of life?"
Yeah.
I know you know that Papi.
I just want so badly for you to feel better.
Just like the PanMan said, "You have to ride the waves. They go up, they come down, but you are never in one place. If you're down, the law is you have to come up. But when you're up, you also have to come down."
Couldn't have said it better myself.
Papi and I had gone to the beach yesterday, because it was the country's day off of work. A day to celebrate workers and they got a day off with pay.
We went to the beach with the masses.
It was my first time to the Sosúa Beach. As I floated, I looked to the sky and spoke to the angels, "Thank you for this opportunity to play in the waves. Thank you for giving me a break today and letting me just float here. Thank you for the ocean."
I have more to thank than for just the relaxing day we finally got to have.
I have to thank the waves for allowing me to ride them.
Come back up Papi!
Your wave has to come back up.
It's crashing a little.
i am passionate about doing what i need in order to increase my fortune
Gratitude List, Day 7/10
1. I am grateful the angels keep sending me words.
2. I am grateful I keep looking for the angels words.
3. I am grateful I worked to get myself out of my depression.
4. I am grateful for the ocean to help heal my back.
5. I am grateful for people genuinely liking me.
6. I am grateful for people who have been mean, so that I know what good people are to me.
7. I am grateful for friends who support me.
8. I am grateful to feel loved.
9. I am grateful for the small opportunity that may be to make an income.
10. I am grateful for Papi to ride these waves with.
when "they" said things dont get easy, they get different , "they" weren't joking ,xo
ReplyDeleteit's so true.
Deleteand different is uncomfortable.
we humans don't like different all that much.
but in time, this too will become 'normal' :)
I'm still " hoping" for a wave!!! ;)
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