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I couldn't figure out why my tummy was rumbling with butterflies and I was irritable, then depressed, then angry all in a matter of an hour.
Then it dawned on me.
I've not been thinking about Mr. Lumpy, because I allowed myself to just go with it being a cyst like everyone said.
However, I did keep my 2nd opinion appointment, just to be sure.
I was going to cancel it until Jersey Girl told me not to mess around and get a 2nd opinion, considering the treatment she got at the same hospital.
So, tomorrow I won't be here to write to you, as Papi and I will be en route to the capitol 3 hours away.
It occurred to me that once that appointment neared, I got a little scared.
Even though I thought it was a cyst for a month, knowing I'm going in for tests makes me queasy and cranky.
I checked on Mr. Lumpy to see how he was doing, and it seems he's decided to get a little bigger.
Then last night, I was lying in a different position and gave him a grope.
I just about puked. There are 3 lumps now.
Do cysts do that?
Grown in clusters on a lymph node?
I'm going with that.
They grow in clusters.
Not to mention, even if it is only a cyst, that bastard has to get a move on, because it's starting to show on the side of my breast.
I don't need a third breast sticking out.
That's just not sexy.
Anyway, needless to say, Mr. Lumpy has made my stomach turn and I'm really uncomfortable with the fear that has returned.
For fucks sakes.
The good part is, is I have had so much good happen in the past month with all the kids that they kept me pre-occupied and I didn't think about it much at all.
I had a little brain break.
Now, the stress headaches are back.
Even though we're going to Santo Domingo for the appointment, there's still some good to look forward to.
The music store!!!
I felt so good after I went on Google Maps and figured out my driving route to get me to the hospital and to the store.
I've pretty much mapped it out in my head and it's really easy.
There won't be any driving around aimlessly like last time.
Then I saw it.
Ikea!!! It's on our route as well.
Those two stores after the appointment will cheer me up.
Mr. Lumpy, you really have to go now.
Today I have another good distraction.
It's the Canada Day Celebration in Cabarete.
They're giving us Canucks a day to remember who we are, even if we are living in paradise.
I wonder if there will be fake snow?
i let go of negative obsessive thoughts