Monday, November 5, 2012

yeah! so fucking what!

Let's talk about offense.

Or rather, let me vent about it while you read and chuckle at the way I deal with my mental illness.

In the beginning of the creation of this blog, I had something to say that I felt I couldn't say to the world, lest I be judged harshly and made to be a part of The Pariah Club.

I did it anyway.

I gained so much from being an outcast.  I found people who also felt the same.  I found my strength from people who allowed me to speak my mind, but not diss me for it.  Instead, they allowed me my freedom of speech until I could heal from my pain.

I also found, I had said enough that I got the shit out of my head, through my mouth and therefore, out of my soul.

I grew.

I found that I didn't need to say much more, because I had the majority of my own shit worked out.

Now I have another level of my shit pile to work on, but this one, I'm tending to be very careful with my words, lest I 'offend' someone.

Then I read an awesome quote that was floating around Facebook.

Meet Stephen Fry, if you already haven't.


I immediately felt connection to this person.

I immediately shouted from my proverbial rooftop, "YES!!!!!!  Exactly!! So fucking what!!!!!!"

Some are offended by what I say, yet I, being part of The Pariah Club (not to mention the minority in my minority of a community), were to say what I really feel, I'd have even fewer friends.

I get offended by things people I love post, however, I don't berate them.  Rather, I allow them their freedom of speech and deal with my own shit.

All I do is I graze past their pics and statuses, so that I can move on to more non-offensive pics.

Like LOLCats.

I mean seriously.  I have fucking issues.

I have such horrid issues, that I bravely called a psychologist today, to plead for help with my P.T.S.D. from past abuses.

I see things that people comment on with ease, that put me into a tailspin, and give me the most fucked up dreams.

Like the dream the other day: the punishment for everyone else in my dream was to be pelted by volleyballs, yet MY punishment for the same error was to have to watch my love pretend to piss out of a hotdog held in his 'man zone'.

Sound fucked up enough?  Yup.

All because I saw a picture of a jello mold in the shape of a penis and balls with great hairy bits dangling from it.

Sound harmless enough?  Sure!  For everyone else, except this wacky brain that jumps into places that no cranium should go.  From a fucking jello mold people!!

Me?  I had 'offense', but it wasn't attached to my Great Non-Judgmental Friend, but by what my brain did when I saw it.

And that's MY shit, nobody elses shit.

So do I say I'm 'offended' by that?  Nope.  I just write a blog about how I need to get this fucking P.T.S.D. out of my life.

I hope my friends can keep getting much more enjoyment out of their happy, healthy brains.  I'll just keep grazing past it, and go to therapy.

Are you offended?  So fucking what.

i see each part of my life as a lesson

13 comments:

  1. So did he pee mustard or ketchup out of his hot dog dick? Lmao.
    I love your new brain, it makes you interesting. XxX

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    1. he burrowed a little hole through the hotdog, then poured his water through the hole making it look 'authentic'.

      so.

      fucking.

      weird.

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    2. Never eating hotdogs out of YOUR fridge... :p

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    3. lmfao!! well, the good news is, you'd never find any there ;)

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  2. Pariah Club? No way! Like Groucho Marx said "I don’t want to belong to any club that will accept me as a member."

    Did you ever peruse the internet for FTM Stand To Pee devices ?? or see a video on them? Or watch Dragons Den and see them?

    I can tell you that using them is like peeing out "a hot dog" (is the W- word - a bad word for you?)

    The mind is funny when it tries to sort things.

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    1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GPqV7amoIrg&feature=youtube_gdata_player

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    2. ah the fenis. i like it. how many times have i wished i could join mankind and find some skanky alley behind a dumpster and pee.

      oh wait, i don't!!

      but it's great for drunks. i remember i could've used it that time i couldn't hold my urine after drinking too much ;)

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  3. I am offended by lolcats.

    Oh, and when we visit, don't go to any bother about feeding us. We'll bring our own lunch.

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    1. hehehe ... but we have a bbq!!! a really nice bbq!!!

      alllll ready for a weeny roast ;)

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  4. I'm offended that i peed through a hotdog in your dream. How could you do that to me. How could you?!

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    1. it was soooooo something you would have done.

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  5. I would always just whip my pants down on the street when drunk and squat and pee so i guess i was truly born a man in an Woman's body :-) People would look at me quite funny if i remember right :-)

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    1. yeah papi ... we're all grateful you're sober ;)

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