I dressed for the part, right down to my dog tag I wear every day with utter pride. It's the one I received from the Queer Arts Festival this summer. You remember the one? The Queer As Fuck award!
One this day, I felt it was the perfect accessory for my power suit.
Every day, I dress in my prettiest clothing, sometimes wackiest colours, to make my femme presence known.
This time, I didn't want to wear it for shooting guns.
I did the last few times. It's fine to wear a skirt, but from this point forward, I feel that I must don my jeans and boots.
I pulled every little eyelet of my 'Sidekick' Dayton Boots taut. I exerted myself, as I wrapped that stout leather around my ankles and shins.
That of course was after I'd slithered into my tightest, most badass jeans I have.
This was not a night for my Dominican jeans with rhinestones on the ass pockets.
No, this was a night for Diesel Indian, Bootcut jeans.
They pull my figure into a tiny little package of strength and 'don't mess with me' attitude.
You could never pull the femme from me, so I still felt pretty with my locks hanging down around my shoulders.
In order to fit in the with the bio-boys, I especially chose my camo sweatshirt to wear nice and snug under my riding leather.
Of course, I no longer have a license to ride my motorcycle, or any other vehicle for that matter. Even if I did, my dearly departed bike was killed in the motorocycle accident.
Still, I kept my leather jacket. Only problem is, as I went into the closet in Our Closet, I realized it's in storage!
I had to settle for my black jean jacket with a few lacy bits behind the buttons.
No matter, because all together, they give me a certain amount of strength.
My boots hold my feet firm on the ground, with their sturdy heels.
Not to mention their pointy tips, that are seriously good for the off-chance that I may need to kick someone in the balls.
Strength. I'm searching for my strength.
It's my power suit.
She means business.
When we arrived at the shooting range, I walked in with confidence. Every boot step sounded as I crossed the floor.
It was like I was wearing a red dress.
It was my space.
My night.
When I shot those tiny silver bullets from my .22, the gun ranger realized he didn't need to help me, saying, "you're really doing good!" then turned his focus on My Gratitude Buddy and my friend I got to know a little better.
They're another member of the Pariah Club. They fit in just fine.
The only thing I needed the gun ranger to do for me, was load me another cartridge so it was ready for my next round.
Of course, my two buddies were in it for the fun, as they shot their 357 Magnum. I stuck to my .22 and 9mm.
If you didn't see the outcome of my new shooting expedition, you have to take a peek at it from yesterday.
I'm getting better.
I'm finding my strength.
I'm finding more confidence.
I'm finding that I WILL be protecting myself without any hesitation.
With that, I'm finding more peace.
I'm also finding a new bond with my shit kickin' boots.
i have only positive mental pictures
I feel the power from here!!!!! ;)
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